tisdag 23 augusti 2011

I like being old. It has set me free!!

I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving

family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become

kinder to myself, and less critical of myself. I've become my own

friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not

making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need,

but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be

messy, to be extravagant.

I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they

understood the great freedom that comes with aging.

Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4

AM and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes

of the 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost

love ..... I will.

I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging

body, and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite

the pitying glances from the jet set. They, too, will get old.

I know I am sometimes forgetful.. But there again, some of life is just

as well forgotten. And I eventually remember the important things.

Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not

break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when

somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what

give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken

is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray,

and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my


So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could

turn silver.

As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about

what other people think.. I don't question myself anymore. I've even

earned the right to be wrong.

So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I

like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while

I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been,

or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day

(if I feel like it).



1 kommentar:

Agneta sa...

Kära Maina, jag instämmer till 1000 och håller med till 100%. Jag är glad att jag är den jag är (men vill vara lite smalare) och vill varken vara yngre eller äldre. Jag gör vad jag vill (nästan) och accepterar mitt utseende (men färgar håret). Du hör - jag är nöjd! KRAM // Agneta

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